Post-Exam Destressing - Mandatory Retail Therapy!

yes it's that time of the year! hahahaa.

in the span of four days, i've been to three different shopping malls. bought many, many things. i know people are always thinking that we just love to hua qien (waste money) but on a contrary and in my self-defense (and many girls), i only buy things that i need and want. anyway, think i'll be doing a fair amount of shopping within these 3 months since i'll be out of action and going back into my tortoise-shell shelter once next semester commences. sigh. already feeling stressed just having that thought.

on tuesday, met up with piggy & chimp in sunway pyramid for shopping spree and end-of-semester movie celebration "the departed". the movie was good.. although i'm not sure how it stands up to "infernal affairs", the 2002 hong kong movie which the storyline and plot was taken and adapted from. from what i heard, "infernal affairs" was better. now i wanna rent the dvd and watch the original thing. hehe. the censors in this movie were rather irritating because the f-word pops out as often as the letter "s" appears in mississippi. so the parts were snipped, scenes were jumping and giving me headaches. and towards the end, the supposed-to-be-censored parts were not even "muted" properly. you hear the f-word loud and clear, and whatever follows after that gets muted. so much for censorship. then there were other words which did not get cut such as a**hole, shit.. no, no more examples to preserve the *cough* sanctity *cough* of my blog :P

all the lead actors in "the departed" stood out in their own way.. leonardo dicaprio - excellent potrayal of the undercover cop who becomes stuck in confusion with his own identity and his job, matt damon - the rat in the police force (ultimate rat), jack nicholson was way cool and notorious as mob boss.. one other actor who stood out was mark wahlberg who although plays an arrogant and irritatingly provoking cop, whom i thought was kinda cool because beneath all that was a cop who is dedicated to doing his job and seeking justice.


back to shopping. bought a pair of jeans, which i really need cuz the one i bought from hong kong is falling off my waist and hips. actually all of the pants/jeans i bought before this year are all wearing off and seriously falling off my butt that it is embarrassing. period. ask any friend of mine in uni (they know cuz they see me more often than others). anyway in other words, i have to buy new range of pants. if not, i have to pakai cheh-kai shorts mari kolej.

shoe fetish. bought two pairs of shoes/sandals - the white pair for my sis' wedding (both ceremony and dinner), bought after 2-hour walkaround sunway pyramid and picked by piggy and simran, my favourite stylists! and the denim covered shoes for fun. hahaa. can wear that on days i have lab sessions. better to wear for short days though, they can and they WILL kill you if you wear them for the whole day with active walking and standing. if you ask me, i think pyramid is a good place to hunt for nice shoes. as for clothes, there is no one definite mall that's all that.


my feet shrank from size 7-8 to size 6-7. help! i'm shrinking!

where were we? oh. right.

went to timesquare on thursday for dress shopping for my sister's wedding dinner. it was an odd choice of mall, according to my sis. but i had two shops in mind already anyway - SA creations & nicci fashion city. what i had in mind was something knee-length (or somewhat below the knee), don't mind sleeveless, something dark coloured (i wanted black initially.. hahaa, sooooo influenced by keren)... wanted to stay away from baby colours, which was a pretty good advice from piggy. i don't want to appear sweet and childish because i'm already 21 and past my giggly girly stage for goodness sake! time to act my age. i wanted something simple yet elegant and modern.

there was no dress which caught my interest in SA creations. maybe because it was hard to find and browse through. but there were many dresses i liked and tried on in nicci fashion city (gosh i love the stuff there). wished i could buy a few instead of just one. hahahaa. the dress i bought was introduced and recommended by an indian salesgirl there. apparently new arrival. it was love at first sight. hehehee. like i said, wished i could buy them all. sigh... sadly, money don't grow on trees.

was wondering whether i should show a picture of me with the dress on, but thought it would spoil the surprise later on when i write, blog and post up pictures for my sister's wedding. then no more fun lor. hehe. but i'll post up a glimpse of one part of my dress. hahaa. nah..


not happy wanna see the whole dress? you'll just have to wait. after all, patience is a virtue right? it's brown. yes, to all of you monash-ians who went to this year's prom, it's brown AGAIN. i don't know what's with me and brown. i can't help myself if the dresses i like all turn out to be brown.

ok. fine. next time, i'll just look at the black ones.

p.s. sorry, the pictures are not very good & contrasted well... my own computer KO-ed since last month (and is not fixed thanks to my lazy bro), so i don't have photoshop to edit the picture. once it's back, i will edit the pictures.

p.p.s. does anybody know where to get knee-length denim skirts cheap? i.e. around rm50. and also decent long blouses? not long-sleeved, long length.

In love with 白袍之戀 (con't)

so. on monday i had 白袍之戀 withdrawal symptoms. hahahaa. siao. thought i'd continue on from my previous post. hehee. no, i wasn't done with my blahness from 白袍之戀.

moving on. one can't help but love mo fan as well, even though he isn't as good looking as qi xiu. he is what people would say gifted as a medical doctor. he learns quick, with brain that soaks up information like a sponge. he has the ability to diagnose diseases quick, and is also quick and meticulous with his fingers (essential for doctors). he is like the equivalent of dr gregory house (of house MD) with waayyyyyyyy better bedside manners and optimism.


he is down-to-earth, cares a lot about his friends and expresses his care in his own way although it may irritate others. a man of his word.. he takes care of qi xiu during 7 years yi ning was comatose because of the promise he made to her before he "put her to sleep". he is good at what he does. and i mean really good. genius is his middle name. but i guess that no matter how good he was in surgery, curing and saving patients of the hopeless cases, he realized that he had absolutely no control over the greatest enemy of all mankind... time... when qi xiu was diagnosed with acute liver inflammation, which drastically worsens with each minute and curable only with a miracle of an available compatible liver.


he is rash and impatient, but grows to think before taking his actions thanks to the more cautious and rational qi xiu, and sun qian who is the girl he eventually falls for. an extrovert who loves to help others, giving free medical care and preferring to open a clinic to help the poor and homeless people than stay in the bigshot hospital where fame and limelight are imminent. cool and cheeky (his cheekiness knows no bounds i tell you). daring and spontaneous.

michael zhang plays mo fan brilliantly. and i would say that acting wise, he's showed greater depth and acting range than dylan kuo as for this character there are plenty of comic reliefs, serious moments, crying and anger, crushed spirit when he realized he could do nothing except wait for a miracle in qi xiu's case. he's definitely a new addition to my favourite actors list which also include johnny depp, gary sinise, bosco wong and damien lau.


mo fan character brings light to the screen, especially with his pairing with sun qian. they are very compatible, funny, hilarious and so cute together. absolutely great chemistry. never seen such a compatible couple in a series since lawrence ng and choi siu fun in "healing hands".


sun qian is quite a reporter who is, like mo fan, gifted with a good mind of imaginations and ideas. she's brave (bonus prerequisite as a reporter), not afraid to speak her mind and always keeping the ones she care for happy. perhaps these characteristics which were somewhat similar to yi ning (but different in her own way) were what made mo fan attracted to her. even the similarities were noted by professor liu (yi ning's father) which had sadly reminded him of his daughter whom he dearly missed due to coma and would never see ever again.


another thing i like about this series was yi ning's style of dressing. for most of the series though she appeared in hospital clothes. hahaa. but for the little screen time she had, i think she has a good sense of style.. or rather the stylist who styled the character has a good sense of style. long skirts paired with long blouses and boots. i like. too bad it's not practical to wear long sleeves and long skirts in malaysian weather. born in wrong country? hahahaa. plus, her hair = long + wave and curls in the right places + really jet black + shiny + no rambut gatal sticking out at the wrong places = envy. really wished i could find pictures online that show yi ning's style, but it's so hard to find. sigh. maybe because of limited screen time.


so bo liao right? but sorry gals.. can't help myself larrr. i've been deprived of gorgeous guys ever since my university life began.. when do i exactly get the chance to feast my eyes? it's summer holiday! it is time to do bo liao things! hahaa. watching taiwanese dramas not only for the guys, but also for the girls.. just kidding. actually, to better my half-past-six mandarin speaking command lar.

now i feel like renting the series and watching it from beginning until the end again. one of the very rare series that i like and actually make an effort to catch each episode. i grew to be quite picky about what i watch these days, thanks to limited time i have to watch any tv if at all, contributed by university life... or is it just my life that is like that?? maybe it could be the realization of the essence and value of time in hand.


the end of my boliao-ness. hahaa.

In love with 白袍之戀

since last month, i've been hooked on 白袍之戀 (bai pao zhi lian). a taiwanese series showing on astro shuang xing channel. who else is watching it? nobody?? hahaa. thought so. jue bu jue de hen qi kuai xiang dao wo gen zhu kan "bai pao zhi lian" (finding it weird that i watch "bai pao zhi lian")?

basically the story centres around two medical doctors, mo fan and qi xiu. the former extremely talented but rebellious, the latter dedicated and rational. mo fan grew up with this girl, yi ning (the professor's daughter), and they thought they would end up marrying each other... until qi xiu (a new student) enters the picture. then the girl gets a disease called rasmussen's encephalitis... and then the story goes on and on for episodesssssssssss after that.


a great heart-wrenching and heart-tickling story nonetheless. one reason i love it is the story and plot. i know people say that those who love sad stories never experience heartache and heartbreak first hand. hahaa. well, i don't LOVE all weepy sob stories i watch, e.g. winter sonata especially the last 8 episodes where crying necessarily takes place throughout each 45-minute episode. reminds me of 青青河边草, but at least 青青河边草 was more endurable, probably because of - again - great story and issues. 白袍之戀 has a mixture of humour (witty jokes.. not lame ones) and serious romance. balanced.

the two male leads are so sooo sooooo... [the cursor has been blinking on the same spot for the past 7 minutes and 12 seconds cuz i can't think of exactly what words to describe] i've fallen in love with both characters. seriously if there were such guys alive, i would have fallen head over heels for them. but tough luck lar. good (looking) and compatible guys are either taken or *cough* gay *cough*. both are brilliant doctors, but nothing close to arrogant.



qi xiu is steady one.. dedicated, loyal, down to earth, speaks mandarin in such a deep and (i have to admit) sexy voice, great smile... he's so cool, shy, serious, rarely emotional but is so very sweet, gentle and caring towards yi ning. he's such a character to watch that you can't resist feeling sad when he's sad, feeling heartache when he's heart broken, smiling when he's being so sweet and detailed. protective but not over-protective. can melt lar if got boyfriend like that.


at least dylan kuo (the actor who plays qi xiu) looks and acts more convincing as a doctor than jerry yan. maybe i'm biased. it's not a secret that i don't like jerry yan. i know there's one friend who would kill me for saying this, but dylan kuo is better an actor than jerry yan.. or rather showed greater improvement from their debut series. furthermore, i find that jerry often needs to say out loud how he feels or what he thinks in scenes in order for the audience to actually know what on earth was supposed to go on in his mind.. it's a weakness IMO. which is why i'm more impressed with dylan who has wider range of expression and didn't need to say everything out to be able to capture the substance of the character. but then againm maybe these are differences in characters they play at fault.

singing-wise... jerry shouldn't sing. even in studio recordings he sounds flat throughout. as for dylan, i wouldn't say his voice is that great but he sounds better. maybe because his voice is deeper, huskier and not so sucked in? hahahaa. pretty decent lah. but nothing too hoo-haah fantastic-bombastic if compared to jay chou, david tao, leehom, jj lin, nicholas teo and guang liang.


but wa tak suka his hairstyle in this show. good thing his usual style is short, but he looks young and sort of bad-boyish in that style. i do see why he needed to grow it ala F4 style (long, mop-like). looks more serious, like a doctor. why did qi xiu have to die in the end?? after 7 years of finding a cure for his girlfriend, waiting for her to wake up from coma only to realize she had forgotten everything that had happened in the past 7 years, and then he is strucked by acute liver inflammation which is 70% fatal. only then she remembers everything. the scene in which he proposes to her and then dies in her arms was so sad. and knowing me who gets emotional and teary everytime i see someone cry/sad.. sigh... you sendiri faham-faham lah.

qi xiu did show symptoms of acute liver inflammation (probably he was infected with hepatitis B/C/D virus through blood which had seeped through his wounds). sadly enough but true the symptoms are not very obvious nor serious, which was bad. he had loss of appetite, paleness, more tired... the worst part is that "acute" defines short-term sudden massive attack of the viruses with death most likely within several days or at most 6 months. see, the liver is crucial for storing glycogen (important for energy), numerous biochemical activities and detoxification of toxins and drugs in the body. if the liver cannot function, your blood eventually gets poisoned, etc.

go here, here and here to read more. best treatment is liver transplant. probably the most difficult issue in cases of acute liver inflammation is difficulty in getting even one available liver donor and more so, compatible one. and even after transplant, one have to pray that the body doesn't reject the organ.


another thing that is great about 白袍之戀 is the relationship between qi xiu and mo fan. i like how the writer portrays and develops their relationship, friendship and rivalry.

they were rivals as they were the best in their field, rivals in love with the same girl and rivals as doctors in the same hospital. despite ups and downs and rivalry, you see nothing less than mutual respect and growing trust they have with each other. that's strong friendship. they were enemies of enemies, and yet they were tight-knitted buddies... like brothers.

What a joke/embarrassment/disappointment...

so. we have a vision 2020.

we want to improve every aspect in our country to make it one of the forerunners of developing countries. we want to improve our education system.

and we want to evolve our teaching methods to suit the 21st century. simply because the message and knowledge remain the same, but the method must change. old things just don't work no more.

and we want to raise the standards of our local graduates from primary school to high school to college to university. in other words, we want to produce high-quality and well-equipped graduates for their next stage.

and we want to increase the passing rate of the nation. how?? by raising the quality of our education... right?

nahh.. this is how they do it.



by decreasing the limits of all grades by 5 marks. now you just score a 35, and you pass. and you can score a 66 in a paper and proudly declare that you scored an A... when it's very well a B. or C by college/university's standards.

revamped system? my foot.

how is this supposed to help our malaysian students? ok. so the excuse is we want to get HELP them into colleges by HELPING them qualify with "better" grades. but hey, how exactly are we helping them? how exactly are we preparing our high school graduates for colleges and universities, where the passing mark is 50? with even harder things to learn, challenging stuff to digest and remember? siao.

it's such a joke you know.. embarrassment.. disappointment.. whatever you wanna call it cuz i can't even begin to choose one that suits.

look. i may be able to accept the new system IF the syllabus was getting harder and tougher. but without even checking through the new textbooks, i know they can't be any harder than what i had five years ago and what our parents had back in the 1960's and 1970's. for goodness sake, the students should REJOICE that progression was taken out of additional mathematics!

i can't help but think whether the public school system is providing and preparing students these days well enough to send them through to college? i mean, tell me.. throughout your years in forms 4 and 5, how many times have you actually conducted a proper experiment? or even handled an apparatus? or even get introduced to lab apparatus? or even taught how to use and manage a pipette, or how to measure volume using a burette? you know Benedict's solution turns blue in the presence of a reducing sugar (cuz you were taught about it in school), but how many of you have ever seen that happen with your eyes in school?

lowering of mark-grading limits... wouldn't that spoil them? allowing them to glide into their comfort zone? not pushing themselves harder? building a future of laziness and convenience dependency.

ironically, this new marking and grading system may truthfully reflect or somewhat reflect the real grading system used in SPM.. which is often always reduced. for me, i never understood how i ever got a B3 for Moral in SPM when the highest i ever got in school was C5.

I'm having the blues.. Exam blues.

3 bananas
1/2 bag of keropok udang
1 big mug of ice milo (buatan sendiri)
1 apple, peeled and fresh out of the coolness of fridge
5 pieces of fried fish fillet in Thai sweet spicy sauce
2 mini cornettos

i don't know why the glutton-ness just now after the MBB paper. probably used up a lot of ATPs (energy) in writing furiously non-stop while brain requiring extra harvest of energy to read, analyze, digest and vomit out facts onto the paper.

now gimme the other half bag of keropok udang.

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my brain is so exhausted and stressed out at the moment. there're just too many freaking things to remember for MBB. cramming them all into my head.. remembering diagrams, that's my forte actually.. as long as i can remember diagrams, the facts come freely. by God's grace and my hopefully undistracted, undying fascination as well as a sponge-like mind... i'll get at least 70% average for this semester dammit.

now with the end of MBB (whose prospects were greatly dimmed within the 180 minutes of gruelling paper - too many things to write, too little time), thought i had to delete everything related to MBB in my head. wrong. MBB and my next paper, Genomics & Molecular Genetics, have plenty of overlapping syllabus and stuff. when you do it next semester, you'll know what i mean. i think MBB makes genomics a lot easier to understand cuz it's just repeating the same thing all over in your head. i hope the paper is much simpler though. answer four essay questions. how exciting.

this post can't be too long. i have to stick my nose back into my books. but a few hundred more words wouldn't hurt. heeheeheehee. kidding. just a few more paragraphs o.O

beginning of my first year, i was so eager to get two degrees - biotechnology and medical bioscience. right now, in the first half of my third year, i'm already so sick of studying and exams. i hate exams. they make you sit in the freaking freezing hall for 2-3 hours, to answer questions after questions after questions. in the end, you get your marks but you don't know where your marks came from. or where you went wrong. or where you were right. in the end, do you really know what you know at all?

i wished that us as students and people were not measured simply by how much you score. sad and cruel. i mean, if someone died in a freak accident (and i'm not implicating or sumpah-ing anyone in particular.. just think general), if he or she was a C or even a B-average student in SPM or A levels, you don't see the newspapers reporting "so and so had just obtained 5 Bs, 4 Cs and 1Ds in the current SPM last week". you always see how many As, and even better straight As'. cuz that's what's important right? stupid discrimination.

i need to get the heck out of there. i'll go crazy if i were to stay extended one year there going to lectures, writing reports every week, cracking head doing assignments and tests. i know i will. i just know it.

it's one phase of life i can't wait and am afraid to end. after that?

How to tell when you have a REALLY bad cold?

your sniffing is as often and in tempo with the beat of techno music.

your voice adopts a huskier and sexier tone.. oohlalaa.

you have headaches because you blowed your nose too hard.

your head's so messed up, you can't think straight.

you become familiar with small, round and red bitter pills which are the so-called ultimate answer to cold and flus. cold-inflicting viruses fear them! die virus die! muahahaa.

you find yourself sneezing more often than you breathe.

and your eyes tearing up more often as well. blame the flu, not sad weepy movies.

your new best friends are sleep, water and tissues. lots of 'em.

you dream about eating ice-creams, drinking ice-cold juices, snow..

your lose your sense of taste. food sweet, sour, bitter, salty.. all taste the same.

you add and add and add soya sauce into your porridge more than the usual, so much that it looks like you've had soya sauce in higher proportion than the porridge itself. can't help it when your taste buds' busted!

you thank God that you can't smell methane bomb people let go in crowded elevator or in the car.

you begin to wonder why cold is called cold, and not hot or steam or blizzard?

you blog about "how to tell when you have a really bad cold"

and sneezed about no less than eight times from the time you began typing until the very last word.

What went wrong?

How can someone or just anyone get past security guards...
Armed with a loaded gun...
Right into school buildings. Unknown...
Until it is too late.
Innocent lives put at risk.
As pleading falls to deaf ears.
While some lives were spared, unfortunate ones were taken..
Those who wanted to live, had so much to live for and so much to give.
Unjustly, they were robbed by these thieves.
Death or no death, this is wrong.
This is so wrong.
This should not be happening.
In fact this should have never happen.

Schools should be a safe place for our children.
And for our children's children...
For their children and for many generations to come.
Is this a sign of what the future - our future - will be based on?
Fear? Violence? Hatred? Destruction?
Nobody knows.
But we know what we do have.
And that is hope.
The hope of change.

Right the wrong before the wrong becomes right.